***10 WHOLE days later***
WOW WOAH WOO WAH!
“Guess who’s back?
Tell a friend!”
Ok so where do I start,
A new peace in my heart,
Fuck the feelings & care
A new sound to my fart!
A little bubble & squeak
a new hat with a peak!
I had a thought today,
I sleep less than I tweet!
So hold on to your seat
and buckle up for the ride!
Coz the Vixen is back,
and she lost all her pride,
I’m a little bit crazy
but you love all that!
Call me a dick…
But I call you a twat!
I’m shameless not aimless,
my thoughts can be tasteless,
I’m amazing im facing
more than you came with!!!
Hey my beautiful blog faces!
Ok… Guess I have a little
explaining to do…
So in the last 10 days…
Chaos outbreak has occurred!
It has been an outrage!
In all areas of my life…
AHH… AHH… Motherfucking AHH!
Even work, some people are just
evil. They can hide it for a while…
But eventually as always,
ALL WILL BE REVEALED!
On the plus side…
Karma’s a bitch called…
I no longer give a fuck about
pretty much anything… I have
little emotion right now and haven’t been this
free since I was in my teens…
I am just not taking much seriously
anymore to spell it out.
Apart from things that matter.
I am sick of letting other people’s
shit drag me down, even family.
I am at that zero tolerance point now.
This goes with everyone and everything.
It has given me a new high!
I can honestly say it’s refreshing!
The difference between now and
then is I feel no negativity or
destruction… Just a detachment from
my normal oh so #Emosh self!
Yes… Hash tag… Emosh!
Just to spell it out that
much clearer that I recently ditched
word press for twitter…
3 days 450 followers on my
I feel like I am famous and I
didn’t even need to get naked!
So yes I am in a new little world
of my own… Negativity is a
new foreign thing to me.
Forget that badness…
BUT… It was only because
I hit breaking point last
Thursday when someone
decided to push my every button
I had left on my keypad of calm…
It’s weird how an act of destruction
from one person can make someone
else so much stronger and happier.
I almost feel to hug that wanker!
Then of course like Jay…
Shake him real hard and say;
“Hey!!! You’re acting like a nut!!!”
BUT HEY! Karma’s a bitch so fuck
that immature piece of shit right?
So what have I been doing whilst
I have been away?
I have been doing ME!
The oh so exclusive me, myself and I!
I can honestly say I have never felt better!
Doing me in many ways…
Having fun, being silly,
being childish, causing laughter
fits all round and inflicting my
laughter virus upon whoever comes
my way… To the point where I cannot
breathe… We cannot breathe!
With my girls and with my brothers!
I love making people laugh, it makes
me feel so good inside… I love it!
The best thing I did recently was
pretend it was my friend’s birthday in
TGI’S and we had a fucking ball
while the whole Restaurant team
clapped and shouted Happy birthday
to my friend who of course has no
birthday until this September.
They were banging on the table
and stamping their feet!
Ha-ha… It was EMOTIONAL! 🙂
But it was so cool the way I
did it and we got a free hot fudge
Which we didn’t eat
as we were too full… Instead we
mixed it with some onion rings and
lots of salt and pepper and
had ourselves a TGI MUD PIE!
It was disgusting and childish…
BUT I LOVED IT!!!
It’s good to act like a kid sometimes!
We werent always an adult…
The inner child is a beautiful gift!
Dont let life’s pressures make you
lose that inner innocence.
I just started living life in a way
that makes YOLO a real thing!
A way that separates who I am
inside the work place to who I
am on the street… I was becoming way
too old inside and I am only 24!!!
I thought FUCK THIS! I just wanna
work, get paid, live life and be happy!
I mean people are always going to
judge you whether you live by the
bible or not! So I say we should all
just do what we want! Whatever makes
us happy… We will be judged anyway so
we may as well do what we want right?
So let me talk about me… Yes…
ME, ME, ME… The many
faces of The one and ONLY Vixen…
Good, bad,happy, sad, funny, sweet,
charming, cold, caring, innocent,
naughty, lovable, loving, disgusting,
shameless, FUN, crazy, wild, mature
and of course immature…
I have been doing a lot! I have even been
going to clubs a bit more often and
let me tell you… My ego is doing just fine
after the amount of guys that asked for
my number last weekend… I counted
16! Yes.. 16! BUT there is only one guy
for me so nobody got my number…
All I need is my number 1 in life…
My soul mate, the other half of me.
My superior and most handsome!
My baby! My life, my fun & happiness…
My future, my… Well me I guess?!
My bestest ever and that is just
what my baby represents… OK!?
I have seen lot’s friends recently!
Even some of the girls I was out
of touch with like Sharnie & Em
who are cousins…
I have known them
beautiful girls for 21 years! That is only 3
years short of my whole life and BOY did we have fun
last night… Tonight I had the pleasure
of my little sister Tigga… My younger double!
Ahh… How I love her and the way she,
like me will do anything stupid to
see me completely LOL!!!
I have spent a lot more time with
my God children as well!
I have had more fun then I would usually…
And I have had a new mind
frame change… A dramatic one!
Let’s just say I got tired of being
“Miss Nice” and decided to become
“Miss Spice” instead…
Miss nice is always
being taken for a prick…
People WILL & DO take your kindness
for weakness at times… But “Miss Spice”
is not as nice, doesn’t care half
as much about anything
and she will certainly not let
anyone take her for a
So here I am… Free minded,
unable to care about ANYTHING
unless of course it really matters.
I feel GOOD! I feel GREAT!
Like I don’t care about all
the stupid little things I would
usually care about… But what
does it take? I want to tell you
all I have been through recently…
It’s a lot but there is no point
telling you all about that shit!
I no longer care to talk about it.
Now… I could never become a
totally cold person… It’s just not me!
But to a certain degree yes it is good.
I spent a whole lot of time caring
too much… About everyone and
sometimes others DO NOT care about
you or things the way you do…
So you may as well quit it!
So eventually it takes
its toll like all things in life…
Best way to be if you ask me?
What do you do?
I will TELL you what you do…
You say; “Hey, this is me! I don’t give
a fuck what anyone thinks!
Happiness is a choice and I have
chose it! You can’t take away
my pain so I will be damned if I let you
take away my happiness! I will only
feel what I wanna feel and if anyone
has a problem with it?
***Confessions part 2 coming soon!***
Sorry for the swearing guy’s I was
pretty drunk when I wrote this.
That is all.